I figure I’d put it under read more since I don’t want to spam other people’s dash with my nonsense.
First of all, I apologize for my absence since on Saturday and Sunday without any notice. My life right now is not in a good state, more like I’m in the most miserable state of my own life. I don’t know… I just….
Argh… I felt bad. I’m so sorry for making you all worried. I was so down and I couldn’t bring myself back up no matter how hard I tried. Many things happened. Stress, university work, study, exams, family issues, so many things during these past two days. I don’t want to bring my negative thoughts and my misery to you guys’ lives so I decided to not get on Tumblr at all. I just don’t want to drag any of you down with me. I prefer to keep it to myself.
That’s why I shut myself off everything. Phone, Tumblr, Internet, Skype. I apologize for those who sent the messages through my inbox, Skype or phone apps. I just got a chance to look at all of them today. My emotions and feelings are still all over the places. My mood is still not yet stable, so I’ll wait until I’m a little more myself to answer them. I’m sorry for the delay, but I can assure you I’ve received them all and read every single one of them. Thank you so much. Really. I can’t say thank you enough.
Again, I’m so sorry for being like this. I hate myself right now more than anything. I don’t like how my attitude towards everything is now. Currently, I view everything negatively, just… I don’t know why. Everything around me just made me so depressed and pessimistic. Everything, except you guys. That’s why… I want to say thank you to all of you from the bottom of my heart.
I’ll try to pull myself together soon. I’m deeply sorry for making you guys worried. Please don’t let my negative attitude now gets to you. I love you all so much. I’ll be alright soon, I promise. And when I am, I’ll return to all of you. Happy and positive like my usual self once again.
I love you all very much. Thank you…
